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Description de l'article de blog : Deux textes courts et percutants : Space cowboy et to love.
Gratien Lattes
6/11/20262 min read
Space cowboy
I don’t react properly to feelings, but I do notice everythink. After all, noticing was my only way as kid to get the pattern, to label others feelings. Hold strange, it could be for a deep talk in speech competition, hold strange, it’s hard to understand deeply everyone, get them for who they are, be the ear of them, and still have nothing to offer. It seems out of a fairytale to be called gentle, kind or calm yet be me. After all, they are not that wrong, I deeply share my soul to others, for that they could give it colours.
I have no barrier in my heart, yet it’s empty. I have raised no extra obstacles to go to my heart. After the rain comes the rainbow, but after every rain is maintained a cloudy weather, how am I supposed to receive those colours.
It’s not like I am closed. I truly just want to have feelings as anyone. Are they too high for my mind to process them? Are they too low for my brain to recognize them? Are they inexistant to leave me as a robot? I have no idea. As a life lover, I see it too cruel...
to love
oh since when didn’t I have envy people on many things, and it’s worse with emotions. Do you guys know how hard it feels to live with instruction you don’t understand? I SO KNOW Oh poor guy, since kid never really get what have emotions feels like Do you guys know how strange it is to smile because it’s what you are supposed to; to cry because all the details that makes a moment sad is present; to choose emotions not by feel but by facts? I SO KNOW Oh to be and feel alive, to wake up with hope for your future to FEEL things!!! Do you guys know how much void you can have in you from never feel something outside when your people are with you; to see in the eyes of others what life with a proper heart feels like, and once they are gone your soul goes silent, do you know? I SO KNOW OH to love and to see yourself loved, the M.V.P of emotions, oh poor guy blind in front of the “said” most beautiful things in life Do you guys know how pity you get for yourself when you only can give time, gifts, caring to your beloved but not love, when you can’t see it yourself regardless of all the efforts, do you know? I SO KNOW oh suffering and void, the closest I can have for feeling the void, oh void you know too well from everyday, the suffering, oh suffering you get by the void.
